i know buddy :) would have written more but me and Vada were deep in conversation :D - she saw your response to my blog and she was pretty interested - keep strong dude and again welcome to letsgosexo - it's small at the moment but it's a great site ;)
sorry to hear that buddy - wish I could help but am too far away - gave up on the computer business years ago and now wear a t-shirt that says NO! I Will Not Fix Your Computer!!!! - keep strong Buddy!!!